staying focused

I'm trying to focus on the harvest and I have put the brakes on buying any more meds so I can put my funds into my grow room. It's bad...Really bad. Fuck. I want to relax. We have the compassion club leaders meeting next Saturday in Lansing. I'm really looking forward to meeting all of the other leaders and seeing where I am on level with other clubs. This will also be the time to decide if we are going to sanction our club under the MMMA. If we do then we can start applying for funding. I will admit, it will be vital that I be medicated before I walk into that meeting. That is the only way I can think before I speak, and I have to make a great first impression. Wish me luck!